“We need to be great actors in this world for us to continue our existence”
- an email from a mentor to me 7/24/2008
Archive for July, 2008
I just read this…
I just wonder
Sometimes I wonder how it feels not to care, be numb and feel nothing when everything around you collapses… Will I still be there, alive?
(last tugging thoughts before drifting off to sleep | 7/26/08)
Blue Hazy Smoke all over
Everything is hazy
It’s hard to pretend that everything is working fine when in fact it’s not.
Thinking about it, I get lost, frustrated and would even go as far as contemplating the possiblity of jumping off from a cliff or getting a hemp rope, tie the other end on my neck and jump off from a chair. But then again, the horrifying idea of the process not being successful is letting me take a step back. But the full truth is, I’m not gonna do it. What’s weird is that if faced with some problems, I’d think about it and convinced with a decision – with conviction – however end up rethinking it. I’d like to think that’s just normal. But yeah, again I’m thinking that there’s more to life. There really is. And I have one in mind already.
I’m out.
Mutters of a stranger’s mind
These thoughts better stop. Now. This is not doing me any good.
