Life is a feast

Recantation

Aileen — Tue, 20 Jan 2009 21:08:37 +0000

i’ve been thinking, since i’m here might as well try enjoying my time. The people are nice, it’s just the environment i guess. Oh well. i’ll be here for a long time. i guess. i guess..

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Not Good

Aileen — Thu, 15 Jan 2009 15:23:21 +0000

eversince i came back here in manila, i’ve been sick. sick as in flu and feeling feverish. blame it on the buses that greatly contribute to the pollution. yuck! never. again. cebu! i’m really coming back.

on one sad note, i think i can never ever blend in to this new environment. it’s just soo different.

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Taking Time To Appreciate.

Aileen — Thu, 15 Jan 2009 13:00:47 +0000

wackow and i recently went to sta fe bantayan island in cebu last january 07-09 for a quick escape and to celebrate our year, with us in tow is our dear friend abby who celebrated her big day on the date of our departure as well. an early road trip but it was all worth it. when i was there (it was my second time already), i couldn’t help but be amazed of the surroundings, the beach and all. i honestly thought to myself, “God’s really an artist. He made all these possible”.

I’ve chosen and posted some pictures below. Ah… beautiful Bantayan sights. i can still smell the sea and feel the sea breeze.

descriptions from L-R, starting from the topmost row.

the view of the early morning sky, we were planning to wake up early to catch the sunrise but unable to do so heheheheh
ogtong cave! a fresh water unground cave found in ogtong resort which also supplies the water for their swimming pool. the water was a bit cold, clear and you can really see the little fishy friends swimming past you.
a glimpse of the sunset sky when we were just about ready to go back to the resort where we were staying.
cutie starfish!
the fantastic view of the long shoreline on the resort where we stayed for our first night.
afternoon view by the beach.
still the ogtong cave. this was in the innermost part of the cave which i really refuse to go to. i have phobia when it comes to dark places and dark water. i always think that someone will grab my leg and pull me down the water. ewww.
the view in front of our beach front room.
just as the sun was setting, haaaaay.

we have taken a lot of pictures and i haven’t even uploaded it in facebook. but i will this week end. hehehe i’m hoping to go back there soon. or we’re actually planning to go to either pagudpud or galera. or bora!

so i fervently wish that i’d have lots of money to fund these planned travels hehehe or save.

OBTW, i was überly happy because i got a tan line, from my bikini and my feet (with the slippers that i was wearing the whole time )

Thank you so much God, for all these things. Happy me!

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Weary. Dreary. Tired.

Aileen — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 14:56:45 +0000

I miss my bed, my room; all the times that it provided comfort to my weary body and drained soul.
I miss the family; i miss the house that served as my home for more than 10 years already.
I miss the fact that life seems so easy and things were near.
I miss seeing my wacky girlfriends; to re-energize me whenever I need a good laugh and reminisce the ol’ times. Ah.. the fun of college life.
I miss sleeping to the sound of the waves when I was in Bantayan for 3 days. Simplicity of life… when at that time I didn’t have to think of obligations, responsibilities and the busy city life; when all I had to think was what bikini to wear, what to do and where to eat.
I miss the familiarity of things in Cebu, when I was just there a few days ago.

I’m definitely going back to Cebu.

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The Weirdness of Things

Aileen — Tue, 23 Dec 2008 02:47:10 +0000

Last night, I made some conclusions about myself about certain aspects. And I don’t know how and why, but I think my mind was so active when I was asleep. Feels like it transported to some place I don’t know and why the focus was on me instead of other normal things like what’s been happening lately, aspirations, dreams.. you know those stuff. It’s just weird, really. Or maybe it was for me to assess myself. To look at who I really am, what makes me tick, smile or frown. Some of the things that came up were about anger, depression, stress, frustration and even jealousy. Not the things I expected, if you ask me hehehe.

But anyhow, it made me realize that yes maybe I should start assessing the past years, if there was growth, decisions I’ve made, things I’ve done or even failed to do. These and more have shaped me into who I am today or will probably have an influence on who I will be in the future.

This doesn’t sound like me hehehe

I better take a nap, I’m just so sleepy because I woke up past 1AM to report to work early.

Happy Holidays, everyone!

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My detailed Xmas Wishlist

Aileen — Fri, 28 Nov 2008 23:59:10 +0000

Alright, this is the first Christmas wishlist for myself. Ever. Don’t get me wrong but before and up until now i can think of things I like, but after seeing it, I’d feel guilty buying it for myself rather than using the money to buy stuff for other people. Thus, opting NOT to buy it for me. A behavior which I think I need to change. As Wackow would always tell me every payday: “You have to buy something for yourself this time.” Guess he’s right, so here… The wishlist (I hope I’m going to get even just one thing from this list hehe).

1. Clinique Happy Heart Perfume Set or just the Clinique Happy Heart perfume spray or the body cream – my favorite! Not overpowering, just the right scent.

2. Ladies bag – this I got to see first.

3. White Sports Jacket - not really specific on the brand, as long as the fit is right to my rather slim frame.

4. Cellphone – my almost 3-year old phone is screaming “Let me rest!”. Obsolence at its best. Not to splurge a lot, I’ve been eyeing N6300 (black).

5. Splurge: fully furnished house and lot. heheheh Dream on!

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My wish this year

Aileen — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 17:43:10 +0000

It’s already November, the 11th month of the year. The month before the holidays. The second month on the last quarter of the year. What I really want to say is it’s almost the end of the year and I still don’t have that excitement that I usually feel. Well, the truth is for the past four years, Christmas wasn’t really Christmas in its purest sense. Yes we have food at home, presents under the tree but at the strike of 12MN I’m usually asleep in my room or just looking outside my window while the rest of the world celebrated like there’s no tomorrow. Happy. I’m not deep inside. I remember being ok with that, but my mom wasn’t. I remembered her knocking on my door just to force me celebrate with them. I remembered crying real hard that night, blame it on the stupidity and hard-headedness of someone at home. That night made an impression on me, trauma. I guess. Trust issues. After that Christmas was never the same again. And since I had to work on Christmas day, I had to drag my self out of bed. And Janna (my supervisor) knew something was wrong, she placed me on meeting mode of most of my shift and we talked. I guess that talkhelped a bit to loosen up and release all the hatred I felt which is not timely. It wasn’t all pretty that time. Horrible feeling but the Christmasses after that were patterned just the same.

So i guess this year, my only wish is that it will all be different. And that I’ll finally get to enjoy Christmas and brush off the trauma and bitterness of the past Christmases. I’m keeping my fingers crossed.

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Yesterday, I…

Aileen — Tue, 28 Oct 2008 02:38:52 +0000

Rode the bus from Laguna to Makati (and back) alone! With total travel time of 1 hour and 35 minutes including the traffic along Alabang, the rest was smooth sailing. Wohhooo! Scary one though but I faced it with such zest and excitement. And I think I climbed up the bus with such a goofy smile on my face (whatever, such a loser! -Ogie). And I sat on the aisle seat, fifth row from the driver, I would have wanted it to be much closer to the door as possible but the rest were occupied. And I really remembered what Wackow told me: take the aisle seat. Lest seating on a window seat beside an old man (-iac) would have him grooping at my arms (or gasp! somewhere else!). Now that’s a scary thought. But overall it was a good smooth ride, safe. And it was on board my favorite bus to date: De la Rosa Liners.
brought my own lunch, which I prepared after taking a bath. It’s a ham and cheese sandwich with mayo and lettuce and my favorite Corn and Carrots. This idea came into being when I was really convinced that I can’t just spend and spend. I’m supposed to be broke this month end pay day, thanks to the ERRONEOUS crediting of my allowance. Thus they will be deducting the excess amount. Oh well!

What else? I’m bored… Help!

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